Recounting Life

Dear Mummy Papa, Maybe, this letter will make you feel better today, less heavier and more loved. I may have never said but you make perfect parents. I think, it is the most important thing at the time being, to make you reckon that how much I love and respect you. You both are the first people I want to tell all the the good as well as bad news to. I have consumed almost 20% of an average life span, and my whole life I have been telling myself that I am not weak and it only now when I am realizing that my strength is because of you both. Maa.. You taught me to let go things that are not meant to be with me forever. You taught me not to hold back because more beautiful things are awaited. You taught me that I don't need another human being to make my life completed. Papa.. You made me learn the theory of being quite and composed in the toughest times, but the at same time, you told me not to be blind. You made me learn the necessity of selflessness, but simultaneously, you to...

"Hello. I exist. Okay. Bye." थोड़ा सकुचाते हुए, कुछ एक दो मित्रों को ये संदेश लिखा मैंने, कुछ क्षणों पश्चात मेरे दुर्भाषक यंत्र पर उन सभी मित्रों का जवाब आया।  प्रसन्नचित मुद्रा में मैंने एक एक करके तीनों ही सन्देश पढ़े, जैसे एक माँ मुस्काती हुई अपने फौजी पुत्र के पत्रों का इंतज़ार करती हो, और जैसे ही डाकिया पत्र के साथ अपनी साइकिल की घंटी बजाता हुआ गली के मोड़ पे पहुँचता हैं, माँ उसका आरती की थाल ले कर उसका स्वागत करती हैं, मानो साक्षात भगवान के दर्शन हुए हो।  पत्र रूपी इश्वर, जिसको पढ़ के माता को अलोकिक अनुभूति होती हैं।  मैंने सर्व प्रथम पढ़ा अपने भाई का जवाब, जिसने कुछ पलों में ही उत्तर दिया था मेरे अनगिनत परन्तु अनकहे सवालो का।  "Hello. I exist. Okay. Bye." "Hello. I exist too. Okay. Bye." सोचनीय थी उसकी बातें, प्रश्नों की बारिश पड़ती हुई सी लगी मुझे,  शायद मैंने भी अनदेखी की ही थी उसकी, दुःख उसे भी हुआ होगा जब पिछले बरस उसका जन्मदिवस भूल गयी थी।  बारी थी अब एक पुराने, बहुत पुराने मित्र का सन्देश पढने की. ...

"No stories ever end. What ends is just your role in them." I can see people readying themselves to follow their new year resolutions. And I am sitting like a moribund patient, enumerating the vivid description of years that passed, and there is little or no promise that I will recover. A flash of memories swept over me, and flashing of grief is a warning that the sleeping volcanoes are forcefully being carried to the upcoming years. But how is this possible? Some of the tectonic disturbances I dealt with, are not even going to turn up in 2016. Some of the melodies I heard, are lost deep down the lanes. Some of the ideas I had, are only remnants inside my head. I fear of eruption that may destroy, I fear of lava that may ruin. "Embrace the bright, new year, It will bring joy and happiness to your life."- The messages popped. I read all of them, I replied to all, I typed a few new messages to people I think I must wish, updated a verbose but meaningless ...

Imaginative! I've always been.. a lot..a lot!  And picture that I've attached, I found it on Google!! Thank you, Google!!  wink emoticon Hell..Yeah.. I've been posting a few, emotionally distraught pictures, telling how hurt I'm, how fatigue I'm, how tiresome it was!!  I am quite a strange person to myself.. I talk to myself!! Or I write letters, for people who might be interested in talking to me..just in order to make it an easy task for them to understand me!! Okay! Chances are, they would just cut me off, after knowing how blind or stupid or impractical I'm..! Dear heart! Don't keep false hopes!! You're not going to give those letters to anyone! Do you understand that?? So, I was telling that I've created a melancholy around, scary environ I want to get rid of, depressing others too!! Well.. Can you think of others when you can't even think of yourself??? And I'm in a good spirt now.. So, won't be giving headaches anymore!! I'm...

You're not the person you were an year ago!!  You're continuously changing!  You are changing in many ways!!  Change is the law of nature, isn't it?? You're growing up! You have turned into a person who is more mature than ever before! You may have gone through a lot! You miss the way you used to be!! But no matter how wonderful you were an year ago, you'll be known for what you are now!! No matter how memorable your past was, you'll be recognized for what you're doing with y our life now!! It's okay if you didn't want the type of life you're leading now! It's okay if it is full of miseries! It's okay if you cry all night!! It's okay if you are trying to arrange things in order but none of your efforts seem to be in your favor! Well.. You're changing! You're more aggressive now! You miss that softness in your behavior! You miss that sweetness in your voice! You curse circumstances that changed you!! You're constantly chan...

At 60, I would suggest you not to bring the "Kaash" thing in your life! You must be trying to deviate from the truth! You'll be 60, successful.. "What else do  I need??" You'll be evade asking yourself if this was the way you actually wanted to move on! Oh yes.. you need nothing! But there will be something missing! Your whole youth was blissful and high on life! But You were diverged! "Kaash!! I had followed my heart at 16.." You're young, free and full of ideas! You have choices! You can fight for the things that you desire for! I would suggest you not to abandon your decisions! I would suggest you not to convince with an explanation, but to give a reason how and why do you need to stand for something! You're your favorite wish, and your only hope! You're young! Act today! Act now! Or you'll be acting never!  smile emoticon -Ridima  heart emoticon

"A group of wild animals had attacked her house while she was alone and sleeping!  One of them fastened on her legs and tried to drag her to the jungle!! But she was rescued by her neighbors!! Beware of the wild animals!!"-told her mother!  Little kids are often made to sleep by telling them bedtime stories!!  "Sorry Mother! I'm no more afraid of the wild animals! Civilized people scare me more!!"-said the little girl..  "Why so??"-asked mother!!  "Our pets try to save us when they see us in danger! And the so called sensible people leave us wounded and hurt!!"-explained the girl! "But animals are dangerous as well.. look at their nails! They can harm anyone!"-Mother made her last attempt! "Harm.. So can the people around!!"-The girl said and she knew that she had won the argument!!